I apologize for my lack of posting, and would like to thank those who commented on my last post. Your advice is greatly appreciated, even if it is no longer necessary.
You see, I keep changing my mind about what I want to do in the game. I guess I'm just a restless soul anymore. Maybe its one of those signs that I'm slowly burning out, but I really don't think that is what it is. I greatly enjoy the time I spend in game, I just have no desire to choose a main and get to level cap, so that leaves me very free to willy-nilly create and delete toons and play God for a little while.
How many characters have I started and wrote a bit of RP story about only to fade into nothingness? And so Gwennis will fade into the background as well. I'm sure there will be others to take her place. Maybe one will even stick.
I found it near to impossible to make friends on new realms, least of all friends that are also interested in RP, even on RP realms. It's as if you have to know names to get in with the cool kids or something.
I've decided that I can enjoy my RP well enough without the interaction of others. I can write my little stories and be happy. And so I return to my old realm, Cairne, where at least I have friends. I was far too lonely those weeks on Argent Dawn.
I deleted three of my five high level toons to make room for the alts I intend to make on Cairne. I deleted Ama, Viva and Ashwynn, as well as various lower level toons. I kept Icelica, and hope maybe someday I will level her up and become an uber DK tank. I kept Levity as my bank alt, mostly because I know I will never want to play her again so she makes a reliable banker (plus she has big bags and shiny flying mounts).
And so I am back among friends, with a shiny chunk of change. Who knew that between those 3 toons I had 20k gold? I know, for those of you auctioneers out there that's chump change, but for me its a lot.
I also found that I have two and a half bags full of BoA heirlooms, which I don't even want to use. I have no desire to rush leveling any more than it is already rushed. I've actually decided that none of my toons will have gathering professions to start with. I can always go back and level that up later, but I can't undo the XP gains provided by these skills.
I'm taking my time and feeling out different toons. I have one that I plan to level purely through dungeons, and several that I plan to level by questing alone. Maybe someday I'll even have a PVP only toon, if I can ever get up the nerve to enter a BG again.
I know, most of you are probably thinking I'm insane for deleting a level 84, 80 and 70. To me it just made sense, and honestly I feel a great weight lifted off of my shoulders. No regrets. Now I have room on my home realm for new toons, and I couldn't be happier.
I don't think that you're insane for deleting characters (and you can always get them back!) Plus if you feel like a weight has been lifted, it was certainly the right choice to make!
ReplyDeleteFor some players, of whom I count myself as one, there comes a time where you either step back, slow right down and smell the flowers, or you burn out, become miserable and quit. I now go for the former - having done the latter a few times.
What matters is that YOU are enjoying your playtime - in whatever form that may be. Having almost resented WoW for so many months during the summer and autumn last year, it's such a relief to be taking pleasure in it again. I hope you too find this feeling *hugs*
I've deleted some high level characters through my days as well, but probably not that many at once - and I always wince a little when I do :)
ReplyDeleteI don't play on an RP realm, but I do sometimes wish I did - I used to RP quite a bit back in the day of MUDs and I miss it. But then I hear people saying that there's no RP on those realms anyway so I guess I'll give it a miss.
I did roll on an RP server once with a friend, and we had a great time RPing as two sisters. But sadly I think that's what's needed - rolling with a friend/friends.
I'm glad you're taking enjoyment in the game, whether it be creating a bunch of low level alts and enjoying them or ending up finding one that you do eventually level all the way up :)
~hugs for both of you~
ReplyDeleteThank you for so consistently being here for me. I'm not going to pretend it was easy. The hardest was deleting the toon that had been my main since BC.
As Pilf said, I did just find I needed to slow down. Despite the heartbreak involved, losing the last guild I was in was maybe the best thing that could have happened to me.
Saga, sadly, I think you're right about RP. ~grumble~ I don't think it should be that hard, but I guess the people who are really interested in RP are few and far between. And even when we do bump into each other, sometimes our RP styles just don't jive.
What matters is that you are enjoying your time. Characters are so easy to level, and leveling is so much fun (for some of us) that there's nothing so insane about deleting characters you're no longer having fun with to make way for ones you will have fun with.
ReplyDeleteAnd personally, I hated AD as a server. I love RP. Am an RPer. Will only ever play on an RP server. But AD was my first server... and I never really learned to love the game until I got away from there. You're right, you really have to know the right people there to have fun. And that's no fun.
Wow.. I'm glad I'm not the only one who had trouble finding RP on AD. I've found the same thing on many of the RP realms, and I've tried a good many of them. The only server I haven't struggled to find RP on was Wyrmrest Accord.
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